Change it up

I am lazy about writing on my blog here. Funny I am not lazy about staying on my diet! Life gets in the way, and it can be hard to maneuverer around it.

It has been almost 10 months on my diet and I have lost 37 pounds. It is coming off a lot slower , not becasue I am lazing off my diet but because my body has become so used to my lifestyle. I realized in 10 months I have not ate a bagel, a slice of pizza, or ate sugar. I never thought I would be able to obtain that kind of dedication, and that alone is good enough for me.

I recently learned about something I could buy for the playstation; Playstation Active. It is similar to wii sports and I am ready for a new routine . I am excited to buy it and give it a try.

Remember, whatever your dream, as long as you are dedicated to it, it IS coming true!

Wow is that me?

Oh my. It is so hard to keep up with my life. Etsy shop, being at the theater 4 days a week, 2 blogs, life!!!! Oh who am I kidding I love it!

I decided it had been way to long since I blogged on here and think it is important i do so as it is motivation towards my weight loss.

I have lost 32 pounds since July of 2009!!! At first it took me so long to even notice I was losing weight; to be honest i still look in the mirror and wonder where its going....I sure hope not ot my boobs lord knows that THOSE suckers do not need to be any bigger. But people kept telling me "WOW! Erin you are looking so GREAT" The analyzer I am I had to wonder if they were saying it to make me feel better or if they really saw the change I was making. Not until I started realizing that all of my "fat pants" were falling off me did I realize " OMG IT'S NOT A DREAM OR A JOKE IT'S REAL!" I so far have rid of about 1/8th of my clothing, and am just getting smaller and smaller so there will be more to go!

It is funny how people only really notice you if you tell them you are doing something. "Hey im on a diet! months later..." wow you look great". "Hey i'm going to Cancun"...2 weeks later" wow you look tan!"...... You wonder; would they really notice if you told them nothing?

Point being I am doing it for me, not for others, whether people notice or not is irrelevant, this is ALL about me, and I am loving it.

The virtue lies in the struggle, not in the prize.
Richard Monckton Milnes

Hey I lost a toddler!

My good friend christine said I inspired her to finally go on a diet, so she went with the diet she knew would work for her "Atkins" all meat, cheese, eggs.....no carbs! She has lost 26 pounds and I am so proud of her dedication and even more proud that I inspired her!

To date I have lost 24 pounds ; Christine tells me" between the both of us we've lost a toddler! lol at this point its more like a 3rd grader.

My diet approach has been much different than christine's; cutting out sugar completely( I am now a splenda girl, never thought that would happen!) And cutting out bread the first month, and then allowing myself 1-2 pieces of bread a week which is usually a piece of naan when my mom and I go to have indian food. Lemme tell you, THAT is discipline! I havent ate a bagel in 6 months. wow. I still miss them......

I do eat carbs, there are good carbs and bad carbs , and it is all about portion control and how much you eat. I feel as if i did not eat pasta, or things like that i would fall off my diet wagon from denying myself. I workout 5 days a week, and the weight is coming off a lot slower than it was, but bu June of next year(when i started my diet) I am confident I will have reached my goal weight.

keep on moving and dont give up and maybe Christine and i will lose an adult.....

Never give up

So it has been a few months now being on this diet and I have lost about 15 pounds. I have slowly added bread back to my diet and do not eat it more than once a week. I have decided to stick with the no sugar in my diet thing, but let me tell you the offering of no sugar items out there is thin. My choices are : sugar free ice cream, carb smart sugar free fudge bars, and sugar free frozen yogurt. Now don't get me wrong I like all of those choices but it is hard to find the good stuff out there!

And stay the hell away from sugar free candy. I tried some sugar free taffy my boyfriend got me at the beach.....ooof lets just say due to all the sugar alcohols its like taking a couple laxatives. ew.

I have been averaging either a pound a week, or inches. I have to admit, some days id rather run naked in the street than work out, it is really hard to keep motivating yourself, but im keeping it up.

now lets see where is my sugar free treats.......

A new me is emerging...

So it has been a month and a half since starting my diet and I am about 11 1/2 pounds lighter! For all the whining and moaning I have done about not seeing a physical change in myself, my boyfriend deserves a medal, but then again so do I:)

About 16 days ago I started working out to a video called"3o days to shred" with Jillian Micheals. It is 3 30 minute circuit training sessions, level 1,2 and 3. I decided to do level 1 for 10 days, 2 for 10 days and so on. Well let me tell ya, this women means business. No resting in between sets, hearing the phrase " I want you to feel like your gurgling your heart!!!" is something that keeps me going! I am on level 2 now, and some of the cardio exercises I just could not do like jump rope( jumping with an invisible jump rope) and the oblique twist( jumping while twisting your upper body). my lower half was so heavy i just did not have the strength to do it. Well I am hear to tell you that for the past 2 days I can do BOTH of those!! I also no longer struggle through the sets of jumping jacks. there are a few weight sets that i have to pause 5 seconds on but when i first started this i could barely get through the 30 minutes.

I really am proud of myself...and dare I say that i am...beautiful? no that is not a question, I am beautiful and really shaping up.

feels good to be loved, but amazing to love yourself.....

Happy anniversary Erin

Well, here I am a month into my diet and exercise routine. Happy anniversary to me! Funny how I had such a torrid relationship with food before, and i decided to "break up" with it! I started a new relationship with food and am pretty happy with it.

I have lost roughly 8.5 lbs so far, and that is not to bad for the first month. I know it may slow down a bit; possibly to a lb a week,that's 4 lbs a month. It is normal for your body to get used to the routine you are doing , so I just keep stepping it up. I have found having a scale is not the best most accurate way to determine how I am doing. Muscle weighs more than fat, so while I am building muscle it is replaces my fat but the scale does not know the difference. I was really obsessed in the first several weeks with weighing myself 2-4 times a day...yes I know crazy. And the fact that our weight fluctuates daily made me even more crazy. Food we eat, water weight, that will all make your weight fluctuate somewhat. I have settled for weighing myself once a day which may also seem a bit excessive, but it is better than 4 times a day. Measuring is also a telltale sign that you are toning. I have lost a few inches in my waist, but i only measure myself every couple weeks or so.

I have been working out to this video called : 30 days to shred: Jillian Micheals. It is a 30 min curcuit training video that literally kicks my derriere big time. Jillian trained all the "Biggest Loser" people on tv and she means business. You hear her throughout the video saying things like " you DON'T get to workout out for 20-30 min and take a rest, there are NO rests in this routine!!!, or "If your looking for a modified version of a jumping jack, look elsewhere, Iv'e got 400lb people that can do a Jumping Jack so can you". She's an exercise drill sergeant and EXACTLY what I need to keep me in line and not let me give up. I read up on amazon about this video with great feedback of great results. So no matter how hard it is I am going to keep up with it!!!!!!

Sayonara, and happy sweating!

When will the new me emerge?

So far I have been on this diet exercise plan for 3 weeks and have lost 7 1/2 pounds. My boyfriend, family and friends have all said they are beginning to see a change in my ; i.e. more defined jaw, smaller waist.

The problem is I look in the mirror and still see my chubby overweight self and it can be quite a downer. I can't tell if my clothes are looser and I still have that nasty roll in my stomach i just want to go away.It makes me wonder when I will finally look in the mirror and be pleased with what is staring back at me.

I often wonder in my mind "what would happen if i ate one piece of bread, or candy, or skipped to days of exercise." Then I think of the tears rolling down my face when I stepped on the scale 3 weeks ago and how angry I was at myself for getting this way. So I think of this quote everytime I am tempted to give up:
"Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can." I was always giving the great advice of not future-scoping how my life"might" be. So instead I am going to decide right here and now what it WILL be, and that means not giving up, going the extra mile, and realizing what you ARE capable of, not what you are not.


Smile and the world smiles with you....